I can’t believe another year has passed. Is it just me or does time to seem to fly the last years? They say but time is just a concept created by man.
2017 was definitely not my year. Although I fell in love and discovered new sides to me, new emotions and things I’ve never felt before. 2017 may have been bad, but it also gave me most beautiful thing – oh serendipity – I don’t believe it to be just a figment of my imagination though I question sometimes if it is just that and then my heart reminds me it’s not. It was all very real. 2017 made me feel a new type of alive, but also left me very dead inside. I went through some stuff adding to the rollercoaster and high that is called love, making the lows feel at an ultimate extreme. Ugh I don’t actually ever get so personal on my blog. I only hint as to what’s going on, but you never truly know what’s going on behind closed doors. I don’t like to confide in strangers or anyone at all really for that matter. But this is my blog and I am in need for an outlet.. kinda.
As for my social media absence, it was much needed. I’ve been going through phases and I’m not done with my soul searching and finding purpose and what is I want to create that is profound yet. I’ve been all over the place and life has been giving me a whooolleee lotttaaaa lemons, it’s been hard catching up with the lemonade. I’ve been troubled by insomnia, facing deep rooted issues I thought were long closed chapters. And a lot of “Why me?” questions.
I’m definetly not the “Why me?”-type of girl who’d sob over her situation, but more the “Well that happened. Great. Moving on. What’s the lesson?”- girl. And if I don’t see the takeaway immediately, it get’s frustrating. The Instagram detox though was because I’ve lost touch with this online world that seems to be becoming pointless more each day. I don’t identify with the macaron eating girl sitting in front of the Eiffel Tower with a bow in her hair and a feed that’s coloured pink and white and, oh yes, let’s not forget the purple sunset that’s lost all it’s magic because what was once a rare occurrence and a sight is everyday shit thanks to photoshop and Facetune. Mainstream that’s shaping creators rather than creators shaping what’s out there to see. I miss the good old blogging days with true personalities like Dustin Hanke, Cailin Klohk, Josephine Meng and Jan Werner. When fame was just a byproduct of talent. Nowadays everyone wants to be famous, but for what?
With blogging I wanted to escape the system, just to find I’m trapped in that very same system only it has a new face. And the consciousness of that makes it so hard for me to play along or comply, especially because I don’t really fit in any box. At the end of the day it’s not all bad. It’s up to us and what we make of it. Of course there are some rules I’ll need to play by but getting to the end of last year I found new energy. Though it’s February now, I needed January to hide again. But I’m happy that my return to Instagram was well received. Are you following me already? @loisopoku
A new direction. New focus. New motivation. And new found passion.
If there is one thing I’ve learned 2017 it’s to let go and trust in God and time to do it’s thing. What’s meant to be will be. It will come back when time is right. When you’re ready.. Whatever you do, do it with all your heart. If it’s loving someone or starting a blog or making music..
Trust that everything will fall in place. And someday it all make sense.
ugghhh sounds like I’m an Instagram motivation page! But I guess it’s true.. Someday it will all make sense
Love Lois xxx